I truly love my work with Redeemer Christian Foundation, Inc. Click here for the website. When I wholeheartedly believe in something, I can work tirelessly for hours. Heading up a non-profit Christian ministry is a full time job. There's no pay, but the "eternal benefits" are great!!
My problem is that I find myself with many plates in the air spinning. I will use a shoehorn if I have to, to try to squeeze one more agenda item into my day. You see, if I don't, then that might mean one more child in the Middle East taken into slavery. One more child kidnapped and made to train for jihad against the "infidels" (which are you and me). One more child who remains orphaned on the streets with no food in their stomach. I can't sleep at night knowing that might happen.
With what's going on in the world....it goes without saying that my sleep patterns have not been the best. We just came off a successful "Sphere of Influence" fundraising campaign by my wonderful Board. Instead of allowing myself to bask in the goodness of what God had just done, and simply REST, my mind was off and running on the subject of what's next?? What's in the pipeline for when those resources are used up.?
It's no coincidence that I read these words of scripture this morning in my friend, Mary Carver's blog post:
"It's useless for you to work so hard from early morning until late at night, anxiously working for food to eat; for God gives rest to his loved ones." (Psalm 127:2)
That is me, in a nutshell, working anxiously from early morning until late at night. (and then am unable to sleep)
This is NOT the model God has set before me...
For God gives rest to his loved ones!!
Even God rested on the seventh day. Wouldn't I do well to imitate His example??
When I get myself worked up into a twit, the husband of one of my Board members reminds me:
Manna for today, Bev, only for today!
What is this saying about my level of faith and trust in God when I am tirelessly trying to make things happen in my own strength? I think that's nasty pride sneaking in here. This, after all, is God's ministry. He's got this.
He can only use me and work through me if I get myself out of the way first.
Then the Lord said to Moses, "I will rain down bread from heaven for you. The people are to go out each day and gather enough for that day. In this way I will test them and see whether they will follow my instructions. (Exodus 16:4)
What must God think when He sees me trying, not only, to scoop up enough manna for today, but stuffing some in pockets, my purse, my bra even to be sure I have enough for tomorrow?
He's testing my faith and trust in Him that He will give me each day what I need for that day.
Sad to say, I am not passing the test. This is such an important principle, that the disciples referred back to it in their gospel accounts.
Jesus says, "He (my Father) gave them bread out of heaven to eat."
I don't produce my own bread...God does. If He looks out after the birds of the field, and He looked out after His people Israel, won't He look out after HIS children in the Middle East?? Won't he look out for me?
Oh me of little faith...
"So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." (Matthew 6:34)
So what is the antidote for not worrying about tomorrow?
Go to the verse before Matthew 6:34. Matthew 6:33 says:
"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you."
Rest...Come away...Seek FIRST His kingdom...Trust Him...Do Not Worry...Do Not Be Anxious...Why???
"It's useless for you."
"It's useless for you."
"It's useless for you."
"Manna for today, Bev, only for today..."
Do you have too many plates spinning? Are you having trouble resting today because you're worrying about tomorrow? Do you trust God to give you each day what you need for that day? Do you need to rest and come away?
Dear Heavenly Father, forgive me for living my life with my foot always on the gas pedal. Forgive me for my pride that has me anxiously trying to do things (even good things for you) in my own strength. Help me to rest, and come away with you awhile each and every day so that I can be renewed to do your work. Help me to trust you and have faith in you that you have tomorrow...it has already been written in your book. Give me the peace and calm that lets me know that You've Got This!! Be with the precious children in the Middle East, put a hedge of protection around them. After all, they are truly YOUR children. In Jesus loving name I pray, Amen.
ps. We need your help to stand up to the travesty happening to Christians and children in the Middle East. Are you tired of the hatred being perpetrated and taught to the next generation?
There is hope!!! By offering orphaned and impoverished children (prey for extremists) peace, protection, hope, and love in a Christian school environment, we are teaching children to reach out in love, not hate.
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Don't let this be their reality...