Hey Friend,
So..."Grace" is my watchword for 2015. This post is obviously about grace. But, how do you write about grace when you are, to put it bluntly, really ticked off?
I had waited months to get in with a specialist regarding perpetual nerve pain in my foot. I was ready to head out the door to the appointment when the pest control company called back about scheduling a follow up visit in my ongoing war with the ants in my kitchen. While on that call, the doctor's office called to cancel the appointment that I was heading out the door to go to.
What? They were cancelling right now? Apparently the doctor had a "family emergency". I'm embarrassed to admit it, but any trace of grace for him and his situation immediately blew right out the window. All I could think about was me and my pain at the moment. After multiple calls back and forth with his office, then waiting on hold listening to how great their practice was for eighteen minutes on speakerphone, I finally got a live person who told me two weeks out was the best they could do. Click.
To say that I was not a happy camper would be an understatement. My uber-conscience urged me to utter a half-hearted prayer for his family emergency. Determined not to let this ruin my day, I opted for plan B. I would work on this blog post. With steam still coming out my ears, I prayed. I tried to humble my agitated heart before God. I typed the title and I sat staring at my laptop....
Nothing...I would have had a better chance of turning water into wine than I was going to have writing this post. Just then my phone pinged. It was my good friend and neighbor asking me if I could spare some time to help her assemble and stuff wedding invitations for her daughter who was already distraught that they were going out so late. "Sure", I texted back, "be right over."
How ironic, that in the middle of my ugliness, God was calling on me to measure out - or to give grace.
God can be uncanny with His timing. He knew that I couldn't write about grace until I had been called to freely give it.
And, we can't give grace unless we have truly and fully received grace.
By fully I mean...fill 'er up! You wouldn't walk into a restaurant, pay for a full glass of soda, and then tell the waitress to only fill it half full because that's all you deserved. Nor, would you expect the waitress to grudgingly fill your glass to the top. No, you would drink that full glass and joyfully wait on free refills.
If this analogy was truly reflective of God's grace, we would not be the ones paying for the glass of soda...Jesus would have already paid the price for that full glass of soda (grace).
Somehow we get the mistaken idea that if we keep messing up we will, at some point, run out of, or use up our allotment of grace.
The exact opposite is true. If you are a believer you can NEVER run out of God's grace.
You can't exhaust Him.
You can't disappoint Him.
You can't try His patience to a breaking point.
You just can't. That is what is so truly amazing about God's grace.
Word analysis time (bear with me, I was an English major).
Grace = generous act of God- making us acceptable in His sight through Christ's death.
Grace or (charis) in the Greek form means different things in different contexts. Grace can mean: favor, goodwill, blessings freely given (not by any claim or merit), rejoicing, gratitude, thankfulness, kindness, mercy, acceptance, power.
Grace is a divine blessing given to us by the in-working of the Holy Spirit.
Grace is a blessing freely given. It is NOT based on works or earning it.
In fact Christianity is the only religion based on grace. All other religions are based on works.
Renee Swope, author of "A Confident Heart" said in her book that she surveyed over 1,000 women and discovered that our past failures and fear of failing in the future are the two most common causes of insecurity and self doubt.
What a relief, then, to know that no matter what I do or how badly I mess up, God's grace extends further. I can't do it on my own, but in His power I can pick myself up and begin again. What freedom!!
My grace is sufficient for you; for my power is made perfect in weakness. (2 Corinthians 12:9)
"We do what we can and then we rest in grace." (Holley Gerth)
"If grace is an ocean, we're all sinking." (worship song by J. McMillan)
Obviously we don't go on purposefully sinning so that our grace may increase.
But, we go on living freely knowing that God's grace has set us free.
Lord, help me to know that because of Your grace, my guilt is forgiven - washed clean. Strengthen my heart to know that no matter what, I can never run out of Your grace. When I want to give You my "works" enable me to give You my thanks instead. Let me feel Your waterfall of never ending grace fall down on me and give me peace. In Jesus' precious name, Amen.
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**This post dedicated to my friends who have lavished much grace upon me in my times of weakness.
I am thankful there is always more grace. I get angry at situations like that, or at my girls. It's a good thing God doesn't get tired of me and turn me away! :)
ReplyDeleteI used to struggle a lot with God's attitude toward me because I gave Him human attributes. Thank goodness He is not like me...short fuse...quick to anger. God, by very definition, is Love and Love never gets tired of us!
DeleteBe blessed,
Bev xx
I love your real life story about the doctor and your reaction. Reminds me of myself. I have an easy time, or so I think, receiving God's grace. It's harder to extend it. But I think in reality I don't really, deep down understand the depth of God's grace toward me. So that's why it's hard sometimes to extend it.
ReplyDeleteBetsy,
DeleteGreat point that you made...I don't think any of us, deep down, understand the depth of God's grace toward us. It is impossible for our minds to fully comprehend God, let alone the awesome amount of grace He shows us. That's why He is God and we are not. Thanks for some needed insight!
((hugs)),
Bev
Hi Bev,
ReplyDeleteI can so relate to the frustration of a canceled appointment but what a perfect opportunity to help your neighbor -- and live out the grace you want to extend. It's hard for me to offer grace to others sometimes (I'm not sure why they don't do things like I would do them! :)) but oh, it's a practice I need to carry out in my life! Thank you for these words, friend! :)
Valerie,
DeleteIf you could have seen me that day...I was mad as a hornet! But, you hit the nail on the head when you said it's a practice we need to carry out in life. God gives me plenty of opportunities (both small and big) to practice giving grace. We will never be perfect, but if we do keep practicing - the more we will give grace like Christ did/does.
Blessings friend,
Bev xx
Grateful I am that God allowed us to connect today, Bev. I love that you've talked about the tough stuff of grace, that unmerited favor. We're so eager to get our hands on it, but oft' reluctant to give it away.
ReplyDeleteYes, only by His grace can we respond to life's frustrations in ways that are life-giving. Thanks for taking us there today, friend.
Linda,
DeleteYes, grace is "tough stuff", both to fully receive and to give away. That's why it's my "watch word" for this year...a true challenge indeed. So glad to have you here and to read your insights - know you are always welcome. It's always fun to see how God makes paths to cross :)
Blessings today friend,
Bev xx