Hey Friend,
Today, I am writing to myself because I am struggling. Though this is a sort of therapeutic journal writing, I hope you can listen in and perhaps glean something from my ramblings?!
I have mentioned that I suffer from ocd (an anxiety disorder). When most people think of ocd they think of people who compulsively clean or wash their hands. In some ways I wish that were the case because my house would be a lot more tidy than what it is. Instead I have a form that attacks the very thing I care about most - my relationship with God and His precious word.
I was reading a devotion yesterday that spoke about not worrying and not being anxious about anything. These are definite "trigger" words for me. My inner dialogue went something like this: " Oh no, I am not able to follow God's word on not being anxious perfectly. I get anxious and do worry at times. God must be disappointed in me. I have to try harder to follow his word to the tee. Others don't worry and cast their cares on the Lord...why can't I. I'm never going to be able to get this right..." And on it goes until my heart is racing, my blood pressure rises and I am scared out of my mind because I am sinning. And the really insidious part is that these negative thoughts obsessively repeat themselves over and over again in my brain and I can't stop them. It really is torture!
You may be reading this and think...that's really crazy Bev. Well, yeah it IS crazy. Thus the reason it is categorized as a mental illness. The neurons in my brain are not firing the right way and I get caught up in obsessing about thoughts that others are able to let roll off their backs. It's a vicious cycle.
The first step is to Acknowledge a few things. First, there are so many verses written in the Bible about fear and anxiety, not because God is going to condemn us if we fear or are anxious, but because God knows that we are going to be fearful and anxious at times. He created us with the ability to experience those feelings. He does, however, want us to "cast our cares upon Him". He also knows that we will not be "perfect" at casting our cares. We may give them up for awhile, but then we often take them back to mull over them again ourselves.
For He himself knows our frame. He is mindful that we are but dust. (Psalm 103:14)
In essence, God knows our constitution. He knows we are going to screw up and miss the mark. After all He created us. He knows us better than anyone.
He also knows that we are going to sin. We will do the things we don't want to do. But God, in his loving way provides a solution to our sin problem.
If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. (1 John 1:9)
When I do feel like I have screwed up and have sinned...God provides a way for me. I feel my heart beat a little slower when I realize that even if I have sinned, God tells me if I confess my sins, then He will purify me. I don't have to be perfect.
I also take comfort in the fact that I am not alone.
We have all sinned and have fallen short of the glory of God. (Isaiah 53:6)
I am not the only "dumb sheep" that has gone astray. I am in good company. Maybe it's "miserable" company, but I know that I am not alone.
The second thing, I believe, God would have me know is that I live under Grace not Legalism. If I could do everything perfectly on my own, I would have absolutely no need for a Savior. Every time I read scripture and feel a rush of condemnation, I need to remember that is precisely why I need a Savior because I can't follow the scripture perfectly on my own. It brings me back to a dependence on God and the grace poured out on me through Christ's blood.
"For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith - and this not from yourselves, it is a gift of God..." (Ephesians 2:8)
My heart calms a little more when I realize that I am under Grace and am not tied to the old covenant of the law. Even better...the faith in God's grace is not something I have to muster up on my own; it is a gift of God.
Last of all the biggest "cure" for the condemnation that comes with perfectionistic thinking is grace in knowing Christ as my Savior. This last verse is my mantra at times. When the condemnation of the ocd weighs heavily on me I may often have to say this verse many, many times to combat the hundreds of times the condemning thought goes round in my brain.
Therefore, there is now NO condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. (Romans 8:1)
I feel the anxiety diffusing. It's not gone, but it's better. Thank you for letting me write to myself this week. I pray that there is something? you can take away from my struggle. Though I hate this illness, I am grateful that it always brings me back to an utter dependence on God which is where he would have me be. Grace and peace to you my friend. You don't have to be perfect...God loves you just where you are.
Love,
Bev
Thursday, July 11, 2013
Friday, July 5, 2013
When Not In The Word
Hey Friend,
Yes, I am a little late on my weekly post...I had great intentions of writing something beautiful and stirring about this great Nation we live in, but the words didn't flow. Then I thought I could take a whimsical look at the 4th of July as a holiday and mention how there is a day for just about everything. Take July for example: first comes Independence Day on the 4th; then comes National Chocolate Day on the 7th; followed by National Ice Cream day on the 21st; and finally Parents' Day on the 28th.
So we emancipate our children on the 4th; we give them a caffeine buzz on the 7th; follow it up with "brain freeze" and a sugar high on the 21st and then when all that's said and done, we parents have to recuperate on the 28th...clever, but then the pen dried up.
What is my problem I ask myself? Why can't I write?
And then it dawns on me...I haven't been in the word...I am like a withered rose on the vine. I've been basking in the sunshine, enjoying the passersby, but I haven't been drinking from my roots. There certainly has been enough rain (literally and figuratively). My Bible sits on the table beside me where I usually sit to write, but this week it's been collecting more dust than usual. There sits a wealth of "living water" but I haven't paused long enough to take a long drink.
"I am the vine and you are the branches. Those who remain in Me and I in them, will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing." (John 15:5)
I am unable to write...to bear fruit, if you will, because I have not been abiding in the Lord. He is the vine and I am the branch. Without His word flowing through my stem, I quickly wither and dry up. Without spending time at His feet reading and listening I can do nothing. It doesn't say, "Apart from me you can do 80%, or 50% or even 10%"...it says I can do NOTHING.
Wow! It really is true! The old Bev would have immediately gone into self condemnation mode; beating myself up for getting so caught up in the world that I forgot about God. How could I do that? He's always there for me? But the Bev under grace knows that:
Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. (Romans 8:1)
God has lovingly used this experience, not to chide me, but to say, "Child, I love you and long to spend time with you. Put away the cares of the world for awhile and just be in my presence."
"Be still, and know that I am God..." (Psalm 46:10)
And so, for a long while, I am still. I set aside the world with all its clamor and chaos that demands my attention and I drink in God's Holy word. Like a parched runner I feel the hydration returning to my body. I am drinking up water from deep within my roots and then it happens...the words begin to flow...
May you drink deeply from His word this week my dear friend. You will be glad you did.
Love,
Bev
Yes, I am a little late on my weekly post...I had great intentions of writing something beautiful and stirring about this great Nation we live in, but the words didn't flow. Then I thought I could take a whimsical look at the 4th of July as a holiday and mention how there is a day for just about everything. Take July for example: first comes Independence Day on the 4th; then comes National Chocolate Day on the 7th; followed by National Ice Cream day on the 21st; and finally Parents' Day on the 28th.
So we emancipate our children on the 4th; we give them a caffeine buzz on the 7th; follow it up with "brain freeze" and a sugar high on the 21st and then when all that's said and done, we parents have to recuperate on the 28th...clever, but then the pen dried up.
What is my problem I ask myself? Why can't I write?
And then it dawns on me...I haven't been in the word...I am like a withered rose on the vine. I've been basking in the sunshine, enjoying the passersby, but I haven't been drinking from my roots. There certainly has been enough rain (literally and figuratively). My Bible sits on the table beside me where I usually sit to write, but this week it's been collecting more dust than usual. There sits a wealth of "living water" but I haven't paused long enough to take a long drink.
"I am the vine and you are the branches. Those who remain in Me and I in them, will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing." (John 15:5)
I am unable to write...to bear fruit, if you will, because I have not been abiding in the Lord. He is the vine and I am the branch. Without His word flowing through my stem, I quickly wither and dry up. Without spending time at His feet reading and listening I can do nothing. It doesn't say, "Apart from me you can do 80%, or 50% or even 10%"...it says I can do NOTHING.
Wow! It really is true! The old Bev would have immediately gone into self condemnation mode; beating myself up for getting so caught up in the world that I forgot about God. How could I do that? He's always there for me? But the Bev under grace knows that:
Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. (Romans 8:1)
God has lovingly used this experience, not to chide me, but to say, "Child, I love you and long to spend time with you. Put away the cares of the world for awhile and just be in my presence."
"Be still, and know that I am God..." (Psalm 46:10)
And so, for a long while, I am still. I set aside the world with all its clamor and chaos that demands my attention and I drink in God's Holy word. Like a parched runner I feel the hydration returning to my body. I am drinking up water from deep within my roots and then it happens...the words begin to flow...
May you drink deeply from His word this week my dear friend. You will be glad you did.
Love,
Bev
Thursday, June 27, 2013
Lessons Learned From The Ocean
Hey Friend,
Majesty: I had to catch my breath as I gazed upon the majesty of God's creation. There is something about the ocean that makes me stop in my tracks and simply gaze upon its large expanse. It extends as far as the mind can imagine. Only an infinite God could create the infinite expanse of blue-green water my eyes take in. Without a second thought my heart and soul are drawn into worship. How awesome is our God.
O Lord, our Lord how majestic is your name in all the earth...when I consider your heavens, the work of your fingers... (Psalm 8:1-9)
Constant: The waters don't ebb and flow just because I'm there. They've been constant in doing that since God spoke them into existence. The rhythm of the waves is like a perpetual heartbeat. The waves crash and release...my mind and heart are drawn into their beating. So it is with God.
Even when I'm going about my own business, He remains there - constant. His heart beats out love for me even when I'm sleeping. Every moment of every day He is there. The steadiness of the waves reminds me that God was, and is, and always will be.
He never sleeps. He will not let your foot slip - he who watches over you will not slumber; indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep. (Psalm 121:3-4)
Flow: As I try to walk into the ocean, the waves pound against me. With each step forward I sense that I am going against the natural flow of things. Determined, I keep stepping forward, losing my balance, being tossed from side to side. Beside me I catch a glimpse of seaweed just gently floating with the flow of things. It's not toiling and striving and forcing its own agenda; it's going with God's natural flow.
I'm struck by how often I plow forward, often with futility, trying to force my will instead of relaxing and going with the flow of God's will for my life. "Go with my flow," I hear God saying. His will for me is good. I need to relax into the flow of His good plans.
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." (Jeremiah 29:11)
Washed: My fiancé and I walk hand in hand along the beach. I gaze at the footprints of the people who walked before us. Their footsteps dug into the sand are all but washed away. I look behind us and our disturbance of the sand has disappeared - leaving not a trace that we were even there.
So it is with the blood of Christ. Time and time again I sin...footprint after footprint. Yet in His mercy He washed my sins away and leaves me pure. No evidence of sin remains.
Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean; wash me and I will be whiter than snow. (Psalm 51:7)
Salt & Light: As I go to leave - unsure of when I'll see the ocean again, I breath in the salty air and squint my eyes in the light reflecting off the sand and surf. Like a benediction, I can almost hear God saying, "Go be salt and light in this dark world."
"You are the salt of the earth...you are the light of the world." (Matthew 5:13-14)
I tuck my lessons away in my heart and bid the ocean farewell. Knowing I've caught a glimpse of God and Heaven, my heart is light. Till I see you again...
Love,
Bev
Majesty: I had to catch my breath as I gazed upon the majesty of God's creation. There is something about the ocean that makes me stop in my tracks and simply gaze upon its large expanse. It extends as far as the mind can imagine. Only an infinite God could create the infinite expanse of blue-green water my eyes take in. Without a second thought my heart and soul are drawn into worship. How awesome is our God.
O Lord, our Lord how majestic is your name in all the earth...when I consider your heavens, the work of your fingers... (Psalm 8:1-9)
Constant: The waters don't ebb and flow just because I'm there. They've been constant in doing that since God spoke them into existence. The rhythm of the waves is like a perpetual heartbeat. The waves crash and release...my mind and heart are drawn into their beating. So it is with God.
Even when I'm going about my own business, He remains there - constant. His heart beats out love for me even when I'm sleeping. Every moment of every day He is there. The steadiness of the waves reminds me that God was, and is, and always will be.
He never sleeps. He will not let your foot slip - he who watches over you will not slumber; indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep. (Psalm 121:3-4)
Flow: As I try to walk into the ocean, the waves pound against me. With each step forward I sense that I am going against the natural flow of things. Determined, I keep stepping forward, losing my balance, being tossed from side to side. Beside me I catch a glimpse of seaweed just gently floating with the flow of things. It's not toiling and striving and forcing its own agenda; it's going with God's natural flow.
I'm struck by how often I plow forward, often with futility, trying to force my will instead of relaxing and going with the flow of God's will for my life. "Go with my flow," I hear God saying. His will for me is good. I need to relax into the flow of His good plans.
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." (Jeremiah 29:11)
Washed: My fiancé and I walk hand in hand along the beach. I gaze at the footprints of the people who walked before us. Their footsteps dug into the sand are all but washed away. I look behind us and our disturbance of the sand has disappeared - leaving not a trace that we were even there.
So it is with the blood of Christ. Time and time again I sin...footprint after footprint. Yet in His mercy He washed my sins away and leaves me pure. No evidence of sin remains.
Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean; wash me and I will be whiter than snow. (Psalm 51:7)
Salt & Light: As I go to leave - unsure of when I'll see the ocean again, I breath in the salty air and squint my eyes in the light reflecting off the sand and surf. Like a benediction, I can almost hear God saying, "Go be salt and light in this dark world."
"You are the salt of the earth...you are the light of the world." (Matthew 5:13-14)
I tuck my lessons away in my heart and bid the ocean farewell. Knowing I've caught a glimpse of God and Heaven, my heart is light. Till I see you again...
Love,
Bev
Thursday, June 20, 2013
Away From My Desk
Hey Friend,
If God took a rest on the 7th day and Jesus withdrew from the crowds to rest and pray, then I too should follow their example. Rest is not only good for the soul, it is necessary!
For the next several days I will be taking a break from writing while resting and relaxing at the beach. I'm leaving my trusty (somewhat) laptop behind, but taking my writing notebook because nothing inspires me more than God's creation at its finest.
I've written 21 different posts. Surely you haven't read them all, so I invite you to thumb through the archives and find one that peaks your curiosity. I pray every morning and evening for those who read my blog. My prayers will not be taking a vacation. So know that you are being prayed for and loved by an awesome God!
So, Myrtle Beach or bust as they say...looking forward to being still for a few days. See you next week for a new post.
In quietness and trust is your strength. (Isaiah 30:15)
Be silent before the Lord and wait expectantly for Him. (Psalm 37:7)
Till then...
Love,
Bev
If God took a rest on the 7th day and Jesus withdrew from the crowds to rest and pray, then I too should follow their example. Rest is not only good for the soul, it is necessary!
For the next several days I will be taking a break from writing while resting and relaxing at the beach. I'm leaving my trusty (somewhat) laptop behind, but taking my writing notebook because nothing inspires me more than God's creation at its finest.
I've written 21 different posts. Surely you haven't read them all, so I invite you to thumb through the archives and find one that peaks your curiosity. I pray every morning and evening for those who read my blog. My prayers will not be taking a vacation. So know that you are being prayed for and loved by an awesome God!
So, Myrtle Beach or bust as they say...looking forward to being still for a few days. See you next week for a new post.
In quietness and trust is your strength. (Isaiah 30:15)
Be silent before the Lord and wait expectantly for Him. (Psalm 37:7)
Till then...
Love,
Bev
Thursday, June 13, 2013
Listening, Really Listening
Hey Friend,
And God said, "Let there be light"... (Genesis 1:3)
God spoke and in four simple words he brought forth light in the midst of primeval darkness; light that was necessary for everything He would speak into existence.
God did not go on ad nauseum about what the light would do. He didn't pontificate about His whole creative process and His reasoning behind it. He simply created and spoke everything into existence with just the right amount of words. In one chapter, in one book of the Bible, all of Heaven and Earth were created and spoken into existence.
What can I/we learn from this? That we need to measure our words. Just because there are thousands of words in the English language, does not mean that we have to use them all.
I had a teacher who once told me, "You have two ears and one mouth. Use them proportionately."
In other words, I need to listen more and speak less. Having gone through some very difficult times, the friends and family that helped me the most were the ones who listened - truly listened.
But, I'm a slow learner. Now, when I'm trying to help a friend going through a difficult time, I am the first person to get on myself for not being able to come up with something profound to say. My friend does not want profound, they just want me...silent, attentive, listening.
He who answers before listening - that is his folly and his shame. (Proverbs 18:13)
Why is this so hard to grasp? Because we are, by nature, "fixers". And how better to fix than with advice? We fill the gap of silence with "oughts", "shoulds" and "musts". - words that drag down instead of lifting up. Grace...my few words need to be filled with grace and love.
He who loves a pure heart and whose speech in gracious will have the king for his friend. (Proverbs 22:11)
How often, when I am trying to listen, am I really preparing what I'm going to say next? Bev, get over yourself and bite the tongue in your brain and truly focus on listening and then, and only then, speak. But, do not speak in haste.
Do you see a man who speaks in haste? There is more hope for a fool than for him. (Proverbs 29:20)
If this sounds like "Remedial Listening 101"...it is because I need it. The Proverbs are full of warnings to those, like me, who can tend to run at the mouth. Proverbs has a word for people who do that..."fools".
Okay, so I'm working on the whole listening thing, But what does God say about what I should say when I do say something?
An honest answer is like a kiss on the lips. (Proverbs 24:26)
Honest can be translated "truthful". Whose truth...God's truth as based on scripture. As much as I like my own words, only God's words offer life, healing and hope.
If you know someone facing difficult times will you pray this prayer with me?
Lord, help me first to really listen, to be gracious when I do speak, to not speak in haste and to speak only Your truth. Amen.
Love,
Bev
And God said, "Let there be light"... (Genesis 1:3)
God spoke and in four simple words he brought forth light in the midst of primeval darkness; light that was necessary for everything He would speak into existence.
God did not go on ad nauseum about what the light would do. He didn't pontificate about His whole creative process and His reasoning behind it. He simply created and spoke everything into existence with just the right amount of words. In one chapter, in one book of the Bible, all of Heaven and Earth were created and spoken into existence.
What can I/we learn from this? That we need to measure our words. Just because there are thousands of words in the English language, does not mean that we have to use them all.
I had a teacher who once told me, "You have two ears and one mouth. Use them proportionately."
In other words, I need to listen more and speak less. Having gone through some very difficult times, the friends and family that helped me the most were the ones who listened - truly listened.
But, I'm a slow learner. Now, when I'm trying to help a friend going through a difficult time, I am the first person to get on myself for not being able to come up with something profound to say. My friend does not want profound, they just want me...silent, attentive, listening.
He who answers before listening - that is his folly and his shame. (Proverbs 18:13)
Why is this so hard to grasp? Because we are, by nature, "fixers". And how better to fix than with advice? We fill the gap of silence with "oughts", "shoulds" and "musts". - words that drag down instead of lifting up. Grace...my few words need to be filled with grace and love.
He who loves a pure heart and whose speech in gracious will have the king for his friend. (Proverbs 22:11)
How often, when I am trying to listen, am I really preparing what I'm going to say next? Bev, get over yourself and bite the tongue in your brain and truly focus on listening and then, and only then, speak. But, do not speak in haste.
Do you see a man who speaks in haste? There is more hope for a fool than for him. (Proverbs 29:20)
If this sounds like "Remedial Listening 101"...it is because I need it. The Proverbs are full of warnings to those, like me, who can tend to run at the mouth. Proverbs has a word for people who do that..."fools".
Okay, so I'm working on the whole listening thing, But what does God say about what I should say when I do say something?
An honest answer is like a kiss on the lips. (Proverbs 24:26)
Honest can be translated "truthful". Whose truth...God's truth as based on scripture. As much as I like my own words, only God's words offer life, healing and hope.
If you know someone facing difficult times will you pray this prayer with me?
Lord, help me first to really listen, to be gracious when I do speak, to not speak in haste and to speak only Your truth. Amen.
Love,
Bev
Thursday, June 6, 2013
Joy Layered Over Pain
Hey Friend,
One of my favorite artists was Thomas Kinkade "The Painter of Light". Most of his paintings featured a scene, often a house, at dusk or dawn. The background would be hues of dark blues or purples and even black - the colors of night. And, then in the windows, with a slight stroke of golden white, he would make light appear; a warm, glowing, welcoming light. The scene would be serene, peaceful and would always bring a smile to my face.
Our lives are somewhat like those paintings. To say that my life has not been exactly easy these past several years would be an understatement. For a litany of the "plagues" you can read my post "Church Lady? I Think Not...". Suffice it to say that I have been through some very painful times...shades of night...dark blue, purple and even black. But, God in his wonderful mercy has dipped His paintbrush in golden white and layered the warm light of joy over my pain. Having had the darkness of pain, the light of joy shines out that much more brightly.
I believe that to experience true joy, you first have to experience pain.
It's like touching velvet after you have felt the cold touch of steel. The experience is that much richer. So many times I have wondered why terrible things happen. We live in a fallen, sinful world. I don't know about you, but I have been tempted at times to throw in the towel, but God says "Wait". Hold on and I will bring you joy that is beyond your wildest imagination.
Weeping may stay for the night, but joy comes in the morning. (Psalm 30:5)
I believe that when I hold on through the pain and get to experience the joy that comes, I get a tiny glimpse of Heaven. We may endure many trials in this life, but the Bible promises that the joy of running into our Father's arms in Heaven will far surpass all the pain we have felt in this lifetime. This is our temporary home; our real home lies in Heaven.
Ultimately Joy begins with a choice - the choice to establish a genuine relationship with God and His Son. Joy does not depend on your circumstances, but on your relationship with God.
If I have nothing else in life, but Christ, I can be joyful. It may not be a laugh out loud kind of joy, but I know that He ultimately holds the paintbrush. In that I can have joy. But oh, when he brushes on that golden white hue...the joy makes my heart want to burst.
I have had one of those experiences lately. I am beyond happy to announce that the most wonderful man in the world has asked me to marry him. I simply cannot express my joy in words. That's how happy I am. I am humbled that God chose me to be the recipient of this man's love. I am made even so much more joyful because the light has been layered upon a backdrop of darkness. God has chosen to layer joy over pain in my life and I am forever grateful!!
From the fullness of His grace, we have received one blessing after another. (John 1:16)
Thank you for letting me ramble on this morning...and for sharing in my joy. God is weaving a beautiful tapestry with our lives and in it are shades of dark and shades of light, but in the end it makes a beautiful and complete work of art. If you are in the dark hues right now, I encourage you to hold on because God is not finished painting or weaving yet. Know that you are loved beyond comprehension! God will not forsake you...he has never forsaken me. Be encouraged friend!
Love,
Bev
One of my favorite artists was Thomas Kinkade "The Painter of Light". Most of his paintings featured a scene, often a house, at dusk or dawn. The background would be hues of dark blues or purples and even black - the colors of night. And, then in the windows, with a slight stroke of golden white, he would make light appear; a warm, glowing, welcoming light. The scene would be serene, peaceful and would always bring a smile to my face.
Our lives are somewhat like those paintings. To say that my life has not been exactly easy these past several years would be an understatement. For a litany of the "plagues" you can read my post "Church Lady? I Think Not...". Suffice it to say that I have been through some very painful times...shades of night...dark blue, purple and even black. But, God in his wonderful mercy has dipped His paintbrush in golden white and layered the warm light of joy over my pain. Having had the darkness of pain, the light of joy shines out that much more brightly.
I believe that to experience true joy, you first have to experience pain.
It's like touching velvet after you have felt the cold touch of steel. The experience is that much richer. So many times I have wondered why terrible things happen. We live in a fallen, sinful world. I don't know about you, but I have been tempted at times to throw in the towel, but God says "Wait". Hold on and I will bring you joy that is beyond your wildest imagination.
Weeping may stay for the night, but joy comes in the morning. (Psalm 30:5)
I believe that when I hold on through the pain and get to experience the joy that comes, I get a tiny glimpse of Heaven. We may endure many trials in this life, but the Bible promises that the joy of running into our Father's arms in Heaven will far surpass all the pain we have felt in this lifetime. This is our temporary home; our real home lies in Heaven.
Ultimately Joy begins with a choice - the choice to establish a genuine relationship with God and His Son. Joy does not depend on your circumstances, but on your relationship with God.
If I have nothing else in life, but Christ, I can be joyful. It may not be a laugh out loud kind of joy, but I know that He ultimately holds the paintbrush. In that I can have joy. But oh, when he brushes on that golden white hue...the joy makes my heart want to burst.
I have had one of those experiences lately. I am beyond happy to announce that the most wonderful man in the world has asked me to marry him. I simply cannot express my joy in words. That's how happy I am. I am humbled that God chose me to be the recipient of this man's love. I am made even so much more joyful because the light has been layered upon a backdrop of darkness. God has chosen to layer joy over pain in my life and I am forever grateful!!
From the fullness of His grace, we have received one blessing after another. (John 1:16)
Thank you for letting me ramble on this morning...and for sharing in my joy. God is weaving a beautiful tapestry with our lives and in it are shades of dark and shades of light, but in the end it makes a beautiful and complete work of art. If you are in the dark hues right now, I encourage you to hold on because God is not finished painting or weaving yet. Know that you are loved beyond comprehension! God will not forsake you...he has never forsaken me. Be encouraged friend!
Love,
Bev
Thursday, May 30, 2013
What's My Agenda?
Hey Friend,
I admit, I would be lost without my Daytimer calendar (I'm a low-tech person).
Maybe for you it's your Blackberry or your iphone. Whatever the method, we keep our precious agenda where it can easily be accessed. Schedules, appointments, to-do lists...we live by them. At least I do. Sometimes I just groan when I look at what all is penciled in on a given day. Does that ever happen to you? If someone asks me, "How was your day?" I am likely to respond with a litany of what I got accomplished that day.
I think God had a different idea in mind when he created us. I don't believe He created us to be human "doings". I believe He created us to be human "beings". God created us to be in relationship with Him...period. He created us in His image so that we might relate to him. We have a brain, a soul and a spirit for a very special reason. Only problem is, we don't use them very often for the right reasons.
So often, I am about the wrong things. Don't get me wrong, things in life need to be taken care of, but what are we REALLY supposed to be about? In Luke 10:38-42, Jesus tells about coming to the home of Martha and Mary. While Martha spins around in Martha Stewart fashion, busying herself with all the preparations, Mary sits at Jesus' feet and just listens to Him and spends time with Him. Martha labors while Mary listens. Hmmm...who would I be in this story? Martha chides her sister for sitting idle while she does all the work. But what does Jesus say?
"Martha, Martha, you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it is not to be taken from her." (Luke 10: 41-42)
Busted. I'm busted. Too many times I put the agenda before the author. I am reminded time and time again in the Bible that I am to put things aside and seek God first. Not when I get around to it, but first.
Seek first the Kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. (Matthew 6:33)
Again, it's the relationship, not the agenda that Jesus is highlighting. The Bible even goes so far as to say "Pray without ceasing." (1 Thessalonians 5:17). I don't believe we can pray constantly, but we can have an attititude of God-consciousness or God-surrender all the time. God simply wants to hang with us as my kids would say.
He loves us so much and created us for a love relationship with Him.
That was God's agenda...so what is mine? I'll end this post with a beautiful piece of prose (once again I didn't capture the author), but it really spoke to my heart and I hope it will speak to yours as to what we are to be all about:
I admit, I would be lost without my Daytimer calendar (I'm a low-tech person).
Maybe for you it's your Blackberry or your iphone. Whatever the method, we keep our precious agenda where it can easily be accessed. Schedules, appointments, to-do lists...we live by them. At least I do. Sometimes I just groan when I look at what all is penciled in on a given day. Does that ever happen to you? If someone asks me, "How was your day?" I am likely to respond with a litany of what I got accomplished that day.
I think God had a different idea in mind when he created us. I don't believe He created us to be human "doings". I believe He created us to be human "beings". God created us to be in relationship with Him...period. He created us in His image so that we might relate to him. We have a brain, a soul and a spirit for a very special reason. Only problem is, we don't use them very often for the right reasons.
So often, I am about the wrong things. Don't get me wrong, things in life need to be taken care of, but what are we REALLY supposed to be about? In Luke 10:38-42, Jesus tells about coming to the home of Martha and Mary. While Martha spins around in Martha Stewart fashion, busying herself with all the preparations, Mary sits at Jesus' feet and just listens to Him and spends time with Him. Martha labors while Mary listens. Hmmm...who would I be in this story? Martha chides her sister for sitting idle while she does all the work. But what does Jesus say?
"Martha, Martha, you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it is not to be taken from her." (Luke 10: 41-42)
Busted. I'm busted. Too many times I put the agenda before the author. I am reminded time and time again in the Bible that I am to put things aside and seek God first. Not when I get around to it, but first.
Seek first the Kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. (Matthew 6:33)
Again, it's the relationship, not the agenda that Jesus is highlighting. The Bible even goes so far as to say "Pray without ceasing." (1 Thessalonians 5:17). I don't believe we can pray constantly, but we can have an attititude of God-consciousness or God-surrender all the time. God simply wants to hang with us as my kids would say.
He loves us so much and created us for a love relationship with Him.
That was God's agenda...so what is mine? I'll end this post with a beautiful piece of prose (once again I didn't capture the author), but it really spoke to my heart and I hope it will speak to yours as to what we are to be all about:
I was made to praise You
I was made to glorify Your name
In every circumstance
To find a chance to thank You
I was made to love You
I was made to worship at Your feet
And to obey You Lord
I was made for You
I was made for the Lord...for His delight and good pleasure. To spend time with Him and just abide in His presence. Let me go right now and put that in ink in my Daytimer!
Will you join me?
Love,
Bev
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